something i am really struggling with right now is being content. i feel like i struggle with this a lot. i try to not complain but when you are a daydreamer and stubborn like i am, it is really hard. i am always thinking of the future & what is going to happen next or i have a certain picture of what i want my life to look like. i get really sad when things are not shaping into the way i have planned. i get a little angry too. then i start to worry and wonder about all the what if’s.
- Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matt 6:34 NIV
- “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? Matt 6:25-27 NIV
what i am learning now is that i need to shift that focus onto being content with everything i have at this moment. bc everything i have at this moment is more than someone else has somewhere. its more than i ever deserved. i believe the lord has me where i am at right now for a purpose & even though i do not have a clue what that is i am learning to be happy.
Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
& then there are times when i feel restless and tired. i just need strength.
He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
i just need to wait on the lord. stop worrying about the what if’s and realize he has everything in control. does this happen to you? do you ever feel like this? i feel like i am not the only one, but if someone out there is going through the same thing these verses really help me.
What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passions are at war within you? You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions. You adulterous people! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God. Or do you suppose it is to no purpose that the Scripture says, “He yearns jealously over the spirit that he has made to dwell in us”?
preparing my heart for haiti and i feel so selfish even feeling like this.